Pia Wurtzbach recalls toxic relationship with ex-boyfriend: ‘I felt so lost, I didn’t have a voice’
Pia Wurtzbach has always appeared empowered and in control, especially when it comes to her romantic relationships. But the 31-year-old revealed that this wasn’t always the case.
In a recent episode of her Between Us Queen podcast, which was released on Friday, March 12, Pia shared that she was once in a toxic relationship where she was “very submissive” to her ex-boyfriend, who she did not name.
Talking to her podcast co-hosts Bianca Guidotti and Carla Lizardo, the 2015 Miss Universe said that she let her world revolve around her then-boyfriend.
Pia said she gave up a lot of things for her then-boyfriend, including her career, friends, and even her own personal space. Pia said she gave up her career—which meant she didn’t have any source of income during the relationship—and her own place. She also stopped meeting friends her boyfriend did not approve of.
She clarified that this relationship happened before she started joining the Binibining Pilipinas pageants.
“Under ako noon sa lalaki. Yung parang kung ano yung sabihin niya, yun ang masusunod. Hindi ako lalaban kahit alam kong mali. I didn’t really have a voice. So, I was that kind of girl. I was very submissive,” Pia narrated.
She added, “I had a relationship before where mas pinili ko ‘yon kesa yung trabaho ko, kesa yung career ko. Mas pinili ko siya kesa hanging out with friends. Mas pinili ko siya kesa sa spending time with family.”
“I gave up my career, I stopped doing the jobs that I was doing, which also meant I didn’t have an income. So, I had nothing.”
During that time, Pia said she remembered “feeling so lost.” “And, like, I didn’t have a voice anymore and parang walang identity,” she explained.
It was through the advice of her sister Sarah Wurtzbach that she realized that her relationship with her boyfriend wasn’t healthy. “One day, I just woke up and I realized I didn’t want this anymore. Ganun,” Pia said.
Because she didn’t have her own place, Pia had to ask a friend if she could stay at their place for a few weeks until “I found my way, kasi wala akong pupuntahan.”
At the time, Pia recalled having only P100 in her wallet. “I just remember packing whatever I could, getting into my friend’s car. And just having only PHP100 in my wallet. Wala akong pera. Wala akong trabaho. As in wala lahat.”
“And I had to rebuild myself again from zero,” Pia said.
While the experience obviously wasn’t pleasant for the beauty queen, Pia said it became a “big learning experience” for her. “Hindi pwedeng Yes Girl tayo palagi,” she said.
Pia further said: “Totoo yung sinasabi nila na mahalin mo nang mahalin hanggang sa mapagod ka. Ibuhos mo na lang hanggang ikaw na mismo sumuko ka na. And that’s what happened to me. I gave it everything—all of my time, my efforts, my heart. And then, napagod ako. One day, I just woke up and then I left.”
She added that relationships—especially bad ones—don’t always end by manner of big fights and confrontations. It could also end via “a gradual decaying of your soul.” "May mali rin ako dun, for sure. Kasi I let it happen. It's not a crazy breakup story... Sometimes, a crazy break story is a very self-destructive one, na it doesn't mean na big fight, big something, but it's just a gradual decaying of your soul. Na parang naubos ka na at na-realize mo na naubos ka na. And then you apply that lesson for the next time, na next time I'm gonna leave some (love) for myself" she said.
Pia with her co-hosts Carla and Bianca agree that one should not give everything to their partners when in a relationship.
Pia is currently in a relationship with businessman-model Jeremy Jauncey.
Banner photo from Instagram/Pia Wurtzbach