Another long lockdown has reminded me, not unpleasantly, of a fact that could be a vice to some and a virtue to others: I’m an incorrigible pack rat — have always been and, given the brevity of the life remaining, will likely always be.
Having loads of boxes stacked around the house — from floor to ceiling and under the beds — I couldn’t resist making a physical check of what was in them, as if I didn’t know: Instamatic snapshots and other photographs going back half a century, newspapers from under martial law, test papers (my students’ and my own), scripts for movies that never got shot, drafts of cringeworthily bad stories, receipts from restaurants long closed, Love Bus tickets, tourist maps of Hong Kong from before the handover, multi-coupon airline tickets, and certificates of attendance for this and that seminar.
Some of you will be smiling, because you’re probably just as bad as, if not even worse, than I am. I don’t think I qualify just yet for one of those Hoarders episodes on TV, where tears get shed and egos get smashed as truckloads of trash depart from excavated homes. But I do identify with those grass-chewing farmers in overalls on American Pickers with barns full of glorious junk behind them — except that instead of cars and oil cans, I have boxes and suitcases full of old papers (and yes, fire extinguishers all over the place).
The logical question is, why not just throw those useless things away? And the logical answer is, because they may not be useless after all.
That’s not even the side of me that’s the formal, organized collector of vintage pens, typewriters, antiquarian books, old Macs and midcentury paintings. Those go into real shelves, cabinets and Mylar sleeves. I’m talking about the sheer detritus of time, the flotsam and jetsam that get washed up on the shores of our home in UP Diliman, and never quite leave.
So the logical question is, why not just throw those useless things away? And the logical answer is, because they may not be useless after all.
Never mind that there’s a growing market for old papers, or what collectors and dealers grandly call “ephemera,” things that come and go. Nostalgia can have a price tag, and people will pay for objects that remind them of simpler and happier times. Others seek out historical connections — signatures of the high and mighty, books from a precious library, a president’s or a general’s juvenilia.
Pack rats don’t really save bagfuls of stuff to sell them decades down the road. We do so because of sentimental value. They tell stories we like to hear, perhaps over and over again.
But pack rats don’t really save bagfuls of stuff to sell them decades down the road. They — we — do so because of sentimental value, because of the personal and intimate associations that even the slightest and commonest articles can carry. They tell stories we like to hear, perhaps over and over again.
This came to mind last week, as I pored over a pile of scrapbooks once kept by a long-departed gentleman whose biography I’ve been working on for the past few years. The first draft had been finished some time ago, but both I and the man’s son who commissioned me to write the book felt that something was lacking — the spark of familiarity, the regular guy, the granular character behind the suited portraits. I urged the family to locate his letters, and they did, sending me a large plastic tub full of scrapbooks, albums, envelopes and papers from as long as 80 years ago, just before and after the war.
I should do another piece sometime on the vanished art of scrapbooking, but the oldtimers reading this will recall how we used to fill up picture albums not just with photographs but notes, cards, cutouts, clippings, and so on. This was the trove suddenly made available to me — several scrapbooks that the man had diligently kept over two decades, chronicling almost every important phase and point in his young life.
This was a man — I can’t tell you who just yet — who became one of our most renowned economists and foreign policy experts, a business icon, and civil servant, a provincial boy who made it to the world’s centers of power, acknowledged by his peers to be among the best of them. There are scholarly and journalistic sources enough to narrate his life, but that’s just reportage, not biography.
What I found and appreciated was a 23-year-old sailing on a ship bound for America, on his first trip abroad as a government scholar. (He’s a smart guy — I go over his college transcript, where I see he barely passes English his first semester, but retakes it and gets a “1” the next term.) He saves his receipts for his suits, shirts, socks, ties, pomade and toothbrush, and the customs pass that allows his mother “and a party of eight” to see him off.
When the ship docks in Yokohama, he seeks out and visits a famous Filipino exile there, who gives him and signs a revolutionary pamphlet that’s also in the scrapbook (and I later confirm with a historian-friend that the scrawled signature is, indeed, Artemio Ricarte’s). When he arrives in San Francisco, he dashes off a breathless eight-page letter to his sister, exclaiming how beautiful, large and busy the place is. He keeps and pastes his train schedules and tickets as he travels eastward to his destination, Harvard.
And so on, and so on — tickets to Broadway, to nightclubs, restaurant menus, hotel receipts, Christmas cards, and then the war comes, and he attends patriotic rallies where the attendees sing Land of the Morning and Philippines, My Philippines, the mimeographed lyrics of which he keeps.
Suddenly my subject came alive for me — because he was, like me, a pack rat, a savior of the little things that sometimes tell great stories.
Banner photo caption: Even the slightest and commonest items can carry personal and intimate associations that tell stories
we like to hear, perhaps over and over again.